Ok, I know I haven’t written lately, but life happens. Rae decided to cheer for the town, and a lot of free time goes into that. With that being said, let me bring you up to speed:
Rae went back to her pediatrician a few weeks ago. She was starting to develop a small tic and slight stutter. I brought these up to him (she was on 10mg of Focalin XR) and he decided it was best to cut her back to 7.5mg. She had also lost some weight, so I bought her Pediasure to try to keep that from happening. She drinks it fairly easily every day, but now she is having trouble at school again. Talking, arguing with her classmates…seems like we are back to the impulse control issue also. I know these things come with ADHD. The thought running through my mind now is, “could something in the Pediasure be affecting the medication?”. Anybody have any insight?? I’ve tried researching this, but came up with nothing. For right now we will go back to trial and error by saving the Pediasure for bedtime. I’ll keep y’all posted. (On the plus side, the Pediasure seems to have helped the tummy aches!)
On to cheer! Her coaches are so very understanding…🙂 by the time she gets to practice her meds are long gone. She enjoys the games, caught on to the routines quick, and has made a lot of new friends. The season is coming to a close and competition is approaching. Her meds will be on board that day…
As for me, I have been working on a personal project. Not going into a lot of detail, but hopefully by next summer I will have something bigger to share with y’all. A clue: I enjoy writing and have set a HUGE goal for myself. This one has been brewing for a while. 😉 Send me some motivation!!
Here it is, the end of August. This month has been full of ups and downs for myself and Rae. My biggest ups are Rae’s accomplishments. School: she’s gotten good colors every single day so far. That’s a big difference from last year. She’s reading books to me every day. Her chore chart is filling up with stars for daily jobs. And that’s just the tip of the iceberg.
My greatest down has been watching Rae face disappointment and losing her fur friend, Chloe (or Miss Kitty…it depends on the day. 🙂). She celebrated her dad’s birthday yesterday. The second one since his accident. We sent up balloons with some of the family and she sang with her cousins. Then she had to wake up this morning to learn that her outside cat had been attacked by dogs. This was another big deal for her simply because it’s the cat that showed up not long after her dad’s death. This leads to my point of this post…
My five year old had to learn today that not all animals are nice and sweet. She’s never had to deal with mean or vicious animals. She couldn’t wrap her brain around why these dogs wanted to hurt her kitty. Time for her “big girl” discussion.
I explained to her that sometimes you have a bad animal that doesn’t care who or what they hurt. There’s also some people in this world like that. God didn’t make them that way (people or animals), other things in this world did. Her innocence in this situation made me feel like dirt because I couldn’t do anything to help the poor cat. In my heart and mind, hurting those dogs wouldn’t have made the situation any better. I would’ve then had to try to justify those actions to Rae. She’s watching my every move. If I can show her what difference a hint of grace and compassion can make, even in tough times, then I hope they stick with her. I don’t want her to think it’s ok to let this often cruel world shape you into a different person than who you want to be. The Golden Rule has been a recurring topic since school started (thanks K5 teacher!!). Maybe…just maybe I can help inscribe that on her heart.
*Dont get me wrong, I am a firm believer in defending yourself and taking up for others, but don’t cast the first stone. It’s not worth the long term effects. Oh, and the dog situation is being dealt with by Animal Control.